WATCH: Selena Gomez Tearfully Reveals New Album Took 2 ‘Nightmarish’ Years of Healing to Finish

Selena Gomez has gone through so much but her experiences have only made her stronger.


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In an emotional video with music streaming giant Spotify, Selena opens up about her new album, Rare, and the process it took for her to finish it.

“Honestly, this album was kind of a nightmare to deal with, but in the best way possible,” she began in the video. “Two years ago I thought I was ready. I’d collected all of these beautiful sessions and I don’t even remember half of them because it evolved each year. And then something would happen to me and it would be very drastic so that it would take me somewhere else.”

The “drastic” moments Selena was referring to were her breakup with The Weeknd to get back with Justin Bieber, which lasted for just a few months. Shortly after their split, Justin started dating Hailey Baldwin and eventually tied the knot. This dealt a massive blow to Selena’s self-esteem which she mentions in her song “Lose You To Love Me”: “In two months, you replaced us / Like it was easy / Made me think I deserved it.

But, Selena says in the interview, all these experiences paved the way to healing. “Then, all of the sudden, I found this healing and I saw something bigger than what I thought that I was, and I think that also added the whole end of the album,” she said.


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Explaining the title of her new album, Selena shared: “So I heard ‘rare’ a few years ago and I just thought that was me, if that makes sense. Obviously I’ve had a lot of self-esteem issues in the past. I still struggle with confidence…it’s going to be something I’ll always be working on. And so ‘rare’ made me feel incredible and I ended up cutting the record before all the other stuff came together. And I never let go of that. That name was so important to me. The moment I heard it I said, ‘That’s the name of my album.’ Because that to me was such a special word. If there’s anything that I can do for women and men would be to tell them that they’re valued, and that they’re rare, and that they’re important.”

She then started to tear up as she talked about her fans—those who’ve continued to support her through all the hardship and have never left her side.

“I love love love my fans very much and I think it’s not that I love them because they love me. I love them because it’s really been about the journey. And I feel like I grew up with a lot of people. And the most heartbreaking conversations are where they’re just telling me that they’re suffering. I never understood it. When people would say ‘it saved my life,’ I just didn’t understand that,” she said, her voice cracking.

She continued, crying: “And I always wish I could just grab every single one of them in their face and just tell them how loved they are, how important they are, how they’re capable of absolutely anything. And if I did all of this and I’m just a girl from Texas and it’s still happening for me…you can do anything.”

“And I’ve had a lot of moments when people weren’t having it. And they just build you up to just break you down. But I would just say that…I would say that you’re beautiful, that you’re exactly where you’re meant to be, whatever that looks like. Even if it’s so hard, you’re worth it. And you always have to choose yourself,” she added.

(ALSO READ: This is Taylor Swift’s Emotional Reaction to Selena Gomez’s Song ‘Lose You to Love Me’)


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