Bella Poarch Explains How “Living Hell” is a Story About Her Childhood

What was your childhood like? If you’ve lived a fairly normal childhood, then we’re very happy for you. If your childhood was a little more difficult, though, then you might be able to relate to Bella Poarch’s song, Living Hell.

Bella Poarch Living Hell

Photo from Bella Poarch

In a Facebook post published yesterday, Bella explains that Living Hell is actually a story about her childhood. She shares, “It’s a story about how I struggled growing up inside a real-life living hell in a tiny room in the Philippines. My whole life, I’ve been trying to escape my childhood trauma, my living hell, and no matter how much therapy I do, no matter how much medicine I take, and no matter how far I try to run away…it always comes back to haunt me.”

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She continues to explain that the music video is actually inspired by her childhood room. “My room was yellow and had a lock on the outside. Yellow because it was a color I was forced to like growing up. It was my parents way of letting me know that they have the power in the house. And a lock on the outside because my parents wanted to make sure that I didn’t escape when I was in there.”

Despite it being really hard for Bella to relive her childhood while she shot the music video, she explains that she really wanted to talk to people about it more. “The reason I’m writing this is because I want all of you who are reading this and all of you who have supported me along this journey to understand that I love you more than you know,” she explains. “You guys are my escape. You guys are why I wake up everyday. You guys are the reason that I’m able to break free from this mess and in my darkest times, understand that things are going to be okay. I truly can’t thank you enough and I want you to know that I’m here for you the same way that you’re here for me. To anyone who is also going through their own living hell, you will escape and I’ll be right there by your side. This one’s for you!”

BRB I’m crying. 🙁

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