Singer-songwriter Donnalyn Bartolome could help but get emotional on camera as she unboxed all the things returned to her by her ex-boyfriend, with whom she had been with on-and-off for almost five years.
“It’s my first time being open about my broken heart by unboxing things my ex returned to me on the day of the dead.. a day for my now seems lifeless heart,” the 26-year-old wrote on the caption of her YouTube vlog.
Donnalyn was already in tears when she started shooting her video as she opened up about her ex-partner and why it didn’t work out between them. She said that he was a private person who didn’t want to be put under the spotlight, which is what made it difficult for them to continue their relationship.
“I’ve been brokenhearted for a long time and I’m just not telling. Not even a lot of my friends, hindi nila alam,” she shared. According to her, she didn’t want to burden them with her problems knowing that they are also going through things during the pandemic.
She proceeded to unbox the items, which included things she loved, things he bought for her, and things she left at her ex’s place, such as balloon bouquets, LED lights, makeup, and even her old laptop. It was when she opened a package with BTS keychains and merchandise that Donnalyn began to cry.
“Binili niya to (He bought this) because I was supposed to surprise my sister. Pero nagka-COVID (But COVID happened) so we couldn’t do parties,” she said with tears in her eyes. “Sorry, naiyak ako kasi… naalala ko lang na sobrang thoughtful niya helping me out with almost everything. (Sorry, I broke down because… I just remembered how thoughtful he was helping me out with almost everything.)”
The entire time she was unboxing, she kept making self-deprecating jokes at the expense of her failed relationship and her broken heart. She also revealed that she hasn’t packed his stuff that is currently with her. “I feel like I’m not ready,” she admitted. “But I’m gonna have to be ready soon because it’s been six months.”
“Our relationship is so complicated na (that) we tried several times and every time naman (really) I feel that I am loved better, but I realized there are things in my life that are just not fit sa life niya (with his life). We tried to make it work so hard but we just ended up hurting each other,” she continued as she explained the reason behind their big breakup. “And I’m crying right now kasi… ako kasi ‘yung nagdesisyon na parang (because… I was the one who decided that), ‘Okay, we really can’t do this,’ ’cause we were being really unfair to each other. We can’t be who we are to each other. Parang (It’s like) we always tiptoe around each other, we hurt each other without meaning to. Our lives are just so different. Parang (It’s like) opposite, total opposite.”
“I know to a lot of people, they say being with someone is a choice. And I’ve chosen to be with this person for a long time. But it’s just… we love each other, but we’re not right for each other,” she added. “They say it’s hard to hold on. I feel that it’s much harder to let go. Letting go of the hope that you two are right for each other is so difficult. Letting go of hope that you two will work out is so hard.”
Ouch! Cue the tears. :'(
She also penned an emotional open letter to her ex, who she did not name, on the description of her vlog.
“To D’ex, though I hope you wait another 6 months before replacing me haha, I still wish you find the right one who can give you everything I can’t. I’m sorry what I could give wasn’t enough. I’m sorry for not being enough or not being the right one for you. I tried even if it meant I would lose myself… because the happiness you brought into my life was such a blessing,” she began.
“I prayed about you every night, thanking Him for bringing you into my life. Your existence and your love was what helped me keep going when I wanted to give up. That’s why I love you enough to let you go,” she continued. “I’m sorry for everything and I want you to know I’ve always forgiven you before you said every sorry in our almost 6 years of knowing each other. Always. I now accept that the kind of love I give isn’t right for you… for us. It might not be the right kind but it’s true.”
“I didn’t know peace would cost this much… and I don’t know when I’ll breathe again or when I’ll stop missing you… or think of you… all I know is I don’t want to ever see us hurt each other again and though I’m terrified I’ll regret leaving, if it means you’ll find The One I was trying to be for years, then I’ll be bitter and angry hahaha jk. I know I’ll be okay because my love for you is true and true love is when you want the one you love to be happy even if it means it’s not with you,” she ended.
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