‘I Was So Sad, So Drunk’: Ariana Grande Doesn’t Remember Writing ‘Thank U, Next’

For US Vogue’s August issue, Ariana Grande lands the front cover and she opens up about her personal experiences and trauma she’s dealt with for the past two years from her difficulty of performing her songs on-stage due to Mac Miller’s death to the romance she had with ex-boyfriend Pete Davidson.

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She shares in the interview that she a moment of self-realization about her song thank u, next:

If I’m completely honest, I don’t remember those months of my life [after Miller’s death] because I was (a) so drunk and (b) so sad,” she says. “I don’t really remember how it started or how it finished, or how all of a sudden there were 10 songs on the board.

I think that this is the first album and also the first year of my life where I’m realising that I can no longer put off spending time with myself, just as me. I’ve been boo’d up my entire adult life. I’ve always had someone to say goodnight to. So thank u, next was this moment of self-realisation. It was this scary moment of ‘Wow, you have to face all this stuff now. No more distractions. You have to heal all this shit.’

Watch her Vogue Cover Video Performance below:

 

I can’t imagine what Ariana must be feeling when she remembers Mac when she performs. Share your thoughts in the comments section.