Former Love Island host Caroline Flack passed away last February 15. A family lawyer confirmed to the Associated Press that she had killed herself.
Flack was the long-time host of Love Island, starting from its launch in 2015 until she was asked to step down following charges of assault in 2019. The charges were denied and the trial was set to begin in March.
(Former ‘Love Island’ Host Caroline Flack Dies, Allegedly By Suicide)
Her family has come out to share Caroline’s last message written before her death.
Released to the Eastern Daily Press, her message reads:
“For a lot of people, being arrested for common assault is an extreme way to have some sort of spiritual awakening but for me it’s become the normal.
I’ve been pressing the snooze button on many stresses in my life – for my whole life. I’ve accepted shame and toxic opinions on my life for over 10 years and yet told myself it’s all part of my job. No complaining.
The problem with brushing things under the carpet is …. they are still there and one day someone is going to lift that carpet up and all you are going to feel is shame and embarrassment.
On December the 12th 2019 I was arrested for common assault on my boyfriend …Within 24 hours my whole world and future was swept from under my feet and all the walls that I had taken so long to build around me, collapsed. I am suddenly on a different kind of stage and everyone is watching it happen.
I have always taken responsibility for what happened that night. Even on the night. But the truth is …. It was an accident.
I’ve been having some sort of emotional breakdown for a very long time.
But I am NOT a domestic abuser. We had an argument and an accident happened. An accident. The blood that someone SOLD to a newspaper was MY blood and that was something very sad and very personal.
The reason I am talking today is because my family can’t take anymore. I’ve lost my job. My home. My ability to speak. And the truth has been taken out of my hands and used as entertainment.
I can’t spend every day hidden away being told not to say or speak to anyone.
I’m so sorry to my family for what I have brought upon them and for what my friends have had to go through.
I’m not thinking about ‘how I’m going to get my career back.’ I’m thinking about how I’m going to get mine and my family’s life back.
I can’t say anymore than that.
Caroline’s mother explained that the message was sent to her at the end of January. Caroline’s advisers warned her against posting the message but now her family feels it is time “to have her little voice heard.”
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“So many untruths were out there but this is how she felt and my family and I would like people to read her own words,” her mother said. “It was describing how she was feeling and what she had gone through – no more than that. It was not blaming anyone or pointing any fingers.”
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