READ: “Hindi Ako Si Tonyo”–A Heartbreaking Post Inspired By ‘Kita Kita’

It seems that the Kita Kita fever is far from over. The romantic film starring Alessandra de Rossi and Empoy has been making a lot of noise since its premiere, and lots of people have been joining in with the bandwagon in their own ways. There are songs, letters, photos, and even parodies inspired by the movies–and all seem to want to have a love like theirs.

But this post by Jonas Paolo Garcia is different because it’s all about how he isn’t nor doesn’t want to be like Tonyo, the leading man played by Empoy.

He titles the piece, “Hindi Ako si Tonyo” and posts it on Facebook. Prepare yourself because it’s actually quite heartbreaking.

Read it below:

“Hindi ako si Tonyo.”

Hindi ako si Tonyo.
Na araw araw kang kukulitin para lang kausapin mo ako.

Hindi ako si Tonyo.
Na mag-aalala sayo kung kumain ka na ba at itatanong kung anong ulam ba ang gusto mo.

Hindi ako si Tonyo.
Dahil hindi kita susundan kung sakaling madurog man ang puso mo.

Hindi ako si Tonyo.
Hindi.

Dahil hahayaan kita.
Hahayaan kitang maging komportable hanggang sa maramdaman mong hindi naman siguro masamang kausapin mo ako.

Hahayaan kitang magutom.
Para matutunan mong alagaan mo ang sarili mo.

Hahayaang kitang madurog.
Hanggang sa mabuo mong muli ang sarili mo at hindi mabuo ng dahil sa tulong ko.

Hindi ako si Tonyo.
Dahil sawang-sawa na kong magpakaTonyo sayo.

Dahil hindi ka naman si Lea.
Hindi ka naman bulag pero bakit hindi mo ko nakikita.

Hindi ka tour guide.
Dahil hindi mo din alam kung saan tayo patungo.

Hindi ka si Lea,
Dahil kahit hindi mo ako nakikita. Hindi ka pa din masaya.

Hindi ako yung saging at ikaw yung puso.
Hindi ako yung una mong nakasamang magpatunog ng kampana.
Hindi ako yung nakita mong habangbuhay mong makakasama.

Pero tulad ni Tonyo at Lea.
Pareho tayong naging masaya sa piling ng isa’t isa.

Na kahit sandali lang tayong nagkasama kahit papano pakiramdam natin ay nag-iba.
Na tila bang naniwala ulit tayo na posible pa pala no?
Na makaramdam ng kilig kahit di tayo umiihi sa banyo.
Na nakapagpundar tayo ng memorya kahit konting mga litrato.

At gaya ni Tonyo at Lea.
Saglit lang tayong nagkasama.
At sa saglit na yon, tila sakin ay kaytagal na kitang kilala.

Pero hindi pa din ako magiging si Tonyo kahit ikaw si Lea.
Dahil kahit mawala man ako.
Hindi mo pa din naman ako makikita.

He starts off by saying that he’s not like Tonyo in the way that he’ll let his Lea experience life on her own, without him always hovering around. He then continues to address a girl, saying that she’s not like Lea because even if she isn’t blind, she still can’t see him.

Then he talks about the ways that he’s like Tonyo in the sense that he was able to experience love and happiness even if it was just for a short while.

And then comes the real heart breaker. The author saying that he will never be like Tonyo because even when he’s gone, he still wouldn’t be seen.

Jonas shares that he was inspired to write the poem when he and his girlfriend just broke up. He wanted to make people realize how we should value people while they’re still with us.

I’m not crying! You’re crying!

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