Katy Perry says she’s “tired of being Katy Perry”

This is a little sad.

Katy Perry did a rather genius move to kick off the release of her latest album, Witness — she’s livestreaming her life, 24 hours a day for four days, and you can watch it all for free.

The Chained to the Rhythm singer set up cameras inside of her home where fans can see her cooking, talking with guests and even answering fan questions.

Yet while this is an amazing way to see more into the pop star’s life (art installations! personal chefs! meditation!), no one could have anticipated this: Katy Perry broke down in a very raw moment.

Talking to Viceland’s Dr. Siri Sat Nam Singh, she said that while she was strong as “Katy Perry”, she’s not as strong as Katheryn Hudson, her real name:

“I guess I’m really strong as Katy Perry. Sometimes I’m not as strong as Katheryn Hudson. People talk about my hair, right? And they don’t like it or they wish that it was longer. I so badly want to be Katheryn Hudson that I don’t even want to look like Katy Perry sometimes, and that is a little bit of why I cut my hair is because I really want to be…”

Then the video cuts off.

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